Intriguing.

I honestly, don't know where my life's heading.
It could be heading down the drain, or it could be heading to a good life.
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This had to be the hardest choice to make, I don't want to leave my home, but I can't handle it anymore. I can't handle the insaneness, the drama, the center of attention, and the complaining. Sorry if it didn't seem like I didn't do much, but to be honest, I did everything and found time for myself.

Maybe it's all I need, maybe it's all I want. Maybe it's what I need to do. I need to get out and have a fresh start, I want to keep my freedom while I'm at it.

So sorry for the things I've done, sorry for the things I've said. Things are done and over with now.


"The best thing you'll ever learn, is to be loved, and to love in return."

Bull

I wish I didn't have to deal with this bull anymore.
My mom just doesn't get it :S

I'm so glad my friend is basically asking me to move in with.
I will gladly take up on the offer.

Moving out of a parent's place at 16.
Scared and excited at the same time.

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Song;
So Yesterday - Hilary Duff
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lt6PVVr4B04
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Quote; "I wasn't born with a golden heart, I was born with a brain smart enough to not take this bullshit."- Unknown

My friends say I'm crazy.

And I know I am. But it's how I work you know?

I'm obsessed with riding bikes, I'd love to do a bike marathon one day.
But for now I'm going to start working my way up, biking for an hour, two hours, 3 hours, 4 hours, 5 hours, maybe even 6 hours.
Because I have the intention on biking to Windsor, from my town. It's going to probably take 5 to 7 hours but hey maybe I can do it. I'll feel accomplished if I do.

My ex-boyfriend texted me to first time today only to find out when I'd be in town, so he wouldn't be around. He wants nothing to do with me for now, he doesn't want to talk with or to see me.

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Song;
Put it in a love song - Alicia Keys Feat. Beyonce
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YwYAOeTpMVY
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Quote;
Truth is, everybody is going to hurt you; you just gotta find the ones worth suffering for. -Bob Marley

What I hope to happen

I want to talk to you this weekend. You don't want me to come around.
I just want to put this behind us, I still like you, I just want us to be friends now.
Instead of having dating drama inbetween us.

If we talk, we can probably work things out, we can solve our problems, we can put this behind us. But if we do end up getting over it, and we do get back together later on. I want you to learn something from me, I want you to learn to communicate with someone, I want you to learn what it takes to make a relationship last.

I'm going to be the one that makes an impression in your life, you may not realize what it takes to make a relationship last until you get hurt. Maybe you'll look back and realize that your ex's tried to tell you, they tried to help you.

I don't wish for anything bad to happen to you. Just maybe, MAYBE, I want you to feel how it feels to get your heart broken. Maybe that's all it takes to make you understand what you do.

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Song;
Airplanes - B.o.B
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kn6-c223DUU&feature=PlayList&p=817F5C50766B697B&playnext_from=PL&index=0&playnext=2
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Quote;
I can still fake a smile, even though I'm crashing down inside.

2010 so far

We have passed the 6 months period into twenty ten. It has been half way through 2010 already.
I've learned that;

• My father isn't who he said he was, and I learned the hard way. Left him April 12th 2010.
• That I can't trust for awhile, my heart has been broken by a guy I thought I loved and thought he loved me, but hey. You learn things the hard way right?
• That my friends are so so so so, important to me, and that I love them with all of my heart.
• That life's gonna be okay.

I saw this guy, and he caught my eye. Yeah he was dating my bestfriend but I could wish I could get him right? We flirted, not verbally, or physically. We flirted using our eyes, my hazel eyes with his dark brown, golden eyes. Less than a week later he dumped my friend over msn, and asked me out a couple days later. I thought nothing of it and thought it had to be fate.
Over the course of 3 + months he told me he loved me, and I told him I loved him too. But now I realized I never loved him, I just had a strong liking for him.
But he broke my heart, and now we're going to talk and try to work things out because he broke up with me over text and is acting like he never cared for me at all.

It hurts when something like that happens.

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Song of the day;
Round and Round - Selena Gomez
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UfcvO2t8Ntg
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